Here I am!

It has been quite sometime since I have written here. I guess the holiday season kinda of got hectic and I did not have a lot of time to write. My how things can change! I went back to work recently. I have not worked since early October due to my little friend, the West Nile Virus. It feels good to be back into society and meeting new people.
I must share that these many months I have been trying to overcome much more than just the virus. My heart has been burdened and heavy for many months now. I have been trying to get over leaving a job that I loved, a job that I thought defined who I was. I was an office manager for a chiropractor. I loved my job! Maybe not so much the title or even the profession. I loved what I got to do, each day our Doctor would meet with us for a few moments before we would begin shift and he would read us a passage scripture or educate us about a new amd different way we could reach our patients and then we would pray before we began that shift. On would go the Christian music and we would march out of our meeting like soldiers on a mission! I am not going to go into the details that led me to leave. I will say that it has been 8 months now and I still think about my job there and, I confess, my heart wishes I were still there. I was on my way home from work yesterday and I felt God speak ever so gently to my heart concerning this matter. You see before I worked in that office I had terrible self-esteem issues. It was a problem in the very begining of my time there, but the doctor believed in me and spend a lot of time and effort training me to believe in myself. I felt confident in my postion there and it helped me to feel whole and good about who I was. When I left that place I left all that I had learned about self there as well. What God whispered to my heart yesterday was that my hope is not in that office, my worth is not subject to a title or a job well done. My worth comes from him! He does not love me less or value me less because I no longer hold that position or title. I am his child and he loves me just the same. For those of you who read this I pray you know your value and how much you are loved, not just by God but by me as well. I have been so blessed! Blessed enough to want to pass it on to you. God bless you my friends, may our God pour upon you a fresh understanding of just how much you are of worth to him.
Abiding in Him,
Tanya